Hey im Jess... Well i guess this is the way the cookie crumbles eh?...
My mind is all full of fucked up shit but the one that is on my mind the most right now is about this guy i really like him but im to shy to tell him and its really hard too cause he hangs around this steriotype prick, plus he is really really shy...like im soo confused about it cause when ever we are alone together its like he is a hole diffrent person.. when ever im all fucked up around him i try to give him hint to know how i feel... and im kinda sure but not really at all if he likes me back... like i cant go out and just ask him... that would be soo weird.. and i dont wanna make is weird for him...When ever i get stoned he runs threw my mind like you wouldnt believe, like does he like me, or does he notice me when other people are about or does he think about me like i think about him... Wish it wasnt soo hard you now, like i concider him as a pretty okay friend, we hang out time to time, get stoned and have a few beers
Right now im kinda scared.. yea scared... cause im soo worried about what he will think, or what he will do or say after i tell him, but i dont think i can ever tell him cause i get all nervis and i dont know what to say around him, like my tongue just like falls out of my mouth when he is around. Like i have never like anyone like how i like him, there is just something about him, that makes me feel alive, makes me feel like nothing in the world is wrong, Ever had that feeling?
My mind is all full of fucked up shit but the one that is on my mind the most right now is about this guy i really like him but im to shy to tell him and its really hard too cause he hangs around this steriotype prick, plus he is really really shy...like im soo confused about it cause when ever we are alone together its like he is a hole diffrent person.. when ever im all fucked up around him i try to give him hint to know how i feel... and im kinda sure but not really at all if he likes me back... like i cant go out and just ask him... that would be soo weird.. and i dont wanna make is weird for him...When ever i get stoned he runs threw my mind like you wouldnt believe, like does he like me, or does he notice me when other people are about or does he think about me like i think about him... Wish it wasnt soo hard you now, like i concider him as a pretty okay friend, we hang out time to time, get stoned and have a few beers
Right now im kinda scared.. yea scared... cause im soo worried about what he will think, or what he will do or say after i tell him, but i dont think i can ever tell him cause i get all nervis and i dont know what to say around him, like my tongue just like falls out of my mouth when he is around. Like i have never like anyone like how i like him, there is just something about him, that makes me feel alive, makes me feel like nothing in the world is wrong, Ever had that feeling?
Like i dont want to have a relationship just based on the phsical love, like i dont want him to just think i like him for that or because he is good looking cause i dont like him for that... i kinda wanna stay away from that part for a while.. if i ever get him i hope he will respect that for a while.. but he is a really sweet, careing, kinda, and just awesome guy, and i care for him alot. A phsical relationship is way off from what i want, like dont get me wrong i love it when he cuddles with me but what ever that is mellow you know?
I've tried talkin to my friend about it but its so hard,Its hard because like what am i supose to say to them? like how im i supose to like ask them for help? They all have pretty good adivce but im to shy to use it but like my friend gill has kepted my hopes up a bit about him, and told me it will take time and i know it will... Fuck like its soo hard when two people are soo shy like this cause you never know how the other ones feels about you, and you kinda feel lost in the world.
This shit runs threw my head and keeps me up at night and it bugs me deeply, some times i feel like cring cause it hurts so bad not knowing how he feels about me,but all the hurts goes away when i see him... its soo fucked ... maybe i should just tell him.. and what ever he says i should just live with it? Right? Im going to do it.. next time im with him alone... Should I?
But Enough of me Rambling Peace Thanks for reading....
I've tried talkin to my friend about it but its so hard,Its hard because like what am i supose to say to them? like how im i supose to like ask them for help? They all have pretty good adivce but im to shy to use it but like my friend gill has kepted my hopes up a bit about him, and told me it will take time and i know it will... Fuck like its soo hard when two people are soo shy like this cause you never know how the other ones feels about you, and you kinda feel lost in the world.
This shit runs threw my head and keeps me up at night and it bugs me deeply, some times i feel like cring cause it hurts so bad not knowing how he feels about me,but all the hurts goes away when i see him... its soo fucked ... maybe i should just tell him.. and what ever he says i should just live with it? Right? Im going to do it.. next time im with him alone... Should I?
But Enough of me Rambling Peace Thanks for reading....
