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Its another day in the world we all call home... Im bored out of my fuckin skull listen to some toons and i was thinking to my self, i should write on my wall on my blog. so here i am, and what i got to say isnt very much.
i've started up rugby again to keep my mind off things, and it doing pretty good so far. my sister kim is down for a bit with her baby isla, and that makes me pretty happy :)...my heart is still pretty sore about what happened between me and the person i love, i wish she only new how much i cared about her and i think i would have a chance with her, but in the end i rather have her as a friend then a lover, cause i think that a friend is for ever, as long as i have her by my side i think i will be okay. but other than that i really dont have anything else to say ... other that im almost done my schooling YAY thank heavens i went back to school when i did...

but thats the way the cookie crumbels

Ah A New Day

Wow its been a while since i wrote on here... and my last blog still stands true, but i dont know what to do, he is just all cought up with his past and doesnt get how much it hurts me. I know he still loves her and i know there is nothing i can do, but he should make up his mind if he wants to be with someone who doesnt want him or to be with someone who cares about him more than life it self. I've fallen inlove with a guy who might never love me back :( and just knowing that the person i love hearts in another place just hurts. All i do is stress about it and cry my self to sleep almost every night, because he just doesnt know how to let go of something that hurts him, like what am i suppose to do? All i want from him is to let go of her and starts something new with me... but i guess he just doesnt understand :( and ryan if you ever read this i hope you get the hint, or i hope this hits you up the side of the head to make you realize what we have might not be there by the time you decide what you want, im tired of cryin, im tired of seeing you heart over something you CANT have, and if you dont figure shit out i dont know what i want to do with you, cause i cant be with someone who;s heart is with someone else... im sorry its just so hard...

I care about you alot Ryan and i hope you realize that sometime soon...

Jess

Can't Bet The Good Times

Hey everyone!, im in the best mood of my life and nothing can change that right now.

I found my prince charming and I hope it lasts a long time, Ryan you make me feel so happy when im around you, you take away all the bad, And i hope you like me as much as i like you...

*Sigh*

And thats the way the cookie cracks

Man last night was the worst night of my life. like what happened to you boys, what happened the the group?

I just wish it would all go back to the old times when we all where friends and were all happy man, i HATE CHANGE! this shit makes me cry all the time lookin back to when we were all friends to now nothing but hate and violence.

FedUp

Thats the way the cookie is made...

FUCK DO YOU GUYS PISS ME OFF! the next time someone calls me a man or says im manly or fuckin makes fun of me because i like girls they are seriously getting a punch in the face, im fuckin sick and tired of it, that oh im to butched or oh Jess doesnt like cock she likes the toco's, its called fuck the right off!!!! i am not a fuckin man an im not butch and who gives to fucks if i like Girls more then Guys! so ALL OF YOU can go FUCK YOUR SELVES!!!

Just A Other Day

Thats the way the cookie ages

Well its been a while... my birthday has passed, alot of stuff has gone down. Done something im proud of and not soo proud of an things that i regret, but i just try to push those things into the past, and try to forget to make it seam like nothing has happened.

It seams that everything that i have ever loved has been flushed away in a instant nothing is really the same anymore, people are changing too fast, an sometimes i just feel that im gettin left behind in this horrible cloud of uncertainty. What happened to the good ole' times hangin out in the big group gettin stoned laughing havein a few beers, now like we are all split up into little clicks and people hate each other mostly cause they changed to much, it kinda hurts to just stand by and watch this happen to my friends, we are basicly one big family in a way but latly all we have been doing is pickin it apart. I think about this even time we are all together... maybe its for the better maybe we should try to stop it i dunno but it think its really RETARDED what we are going to each other. Seriously we need to all talk again but who is going to listen to a sorry pathedic Sixteen year old....

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Tear Drops & Sighs

An thats the way the cookie crumbels...


Man sometimes i feel like im all alone in this world, you know what i mean? No matter how many people are around you you still feel like your felt in the dark. That is how my heart feels doesnt matter if he is around or not still feels that there is a hole there.

I think im going to give up there is no point... im stupid for trying like i swear im just not made out for this hole love thing but the feeling always stays. Now i just feel like there is no point in tryin and i should get my head out of my ass and tell him already... see what happeneds like seriously im going crazy, really cant handle this STUPID feeling anymore...

I will always will be jealous when the girls hit on him even tho i know he probably wont do anything with them but i like him i like him alot... i kinda feel even more stupid writen thing people are probably like what a fuckin retard... and Gill i know you where only sayin those things to be nice to me... but it would never happen it would never work out and we would be the weirdest couple in town... it probably wouldnt of last too long anyways cause of Jeff...

I think the next time i talk to him i will tell him i like him straight up, and see what happeneds... so lets start by gettin my hopes down and shit ... hmmm This fuckin suck